I just looked at my spreadsheet and it’s been twenty days since I blogged. Between health issues (getting better means a lot of ups and downs) and new projects, blogging has been something that I’ve put on the back burner. But there’s something else. Playing my clarinet.

And I don’t really understand why I do, because no matter how I’m feeling, and boy have the allergies been horrible this year, when I play music I feel better. Music has the means to do that. Maybe it’s because I am still working on Pares Scales and I should probably find more music to play, but then I get discouraged because I used to be really good and now, I kinda suck. Since the headspace has been bad this month, that doesn’t help, alas.

Which makes me wonder, who am I playing for? Me? Or some unknown, invisible, nameless faceless audience?

There’s a lot on my plate right now, but one thing I do know is that I need to get back to practicing. There are a great many reasons why, and the foremost one is because I like it. Keep playing!

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